Today I had to run 28K with the last 10K at best pace. I am never sure what my coach is looking for with these runs so I decided that I would try to run the last 10K at 6:15 pace or the pace I hope to run my 30K race in at the end of the month. I did my slow part at 7:04 pace while I watched 3 chapters of House of Cards and then it was time to crank up the speed. I started and then slowed, I did not think I could do it, could I really do 10K at this faster pace. I knew I COULD, I did 9K in 50:38 this week during my speed workout but could I now do it.
Thursday I am talking to the marathon clinic about goals and motivation and I knew I could not face them if I gave up today so I thought about what I wanted to share with them, I thought about everything I had learned about myself through running and triathlon and what motivates me. Before I knew it, I had 2km left to do so I increased the speed again and finished with a smile on my face and in my heart.
I remember running the Miami half marathon hearing a voice in my head telling me to suck it up and keep running, I had no reason to stop and today I heard the same voice telling me not to stop, to run faster. This voice is loud and strong and it is getting stronger every time. It is the voice that told me to run faster on Tuesday and it is the voice that told me to go to Bodypump on Monday after a rough day at work. This voice that wants to be an Ironman more then anything else, this voice that wants to push me outside my comfort zone, this voice has replaced the negative one that use to live in my head. Instead of listening to the negative voice, I will listen to this positive one, it is MY VOICE and now that I have found it, I am not going to lose it.
I love this video, it inspires me every time I watch it, so Rise and Shine, it is time to make our dreams happen