This past year, some running friends trained to do Ironman Mont Tremblant (IMMT), 2 couples in fact and I enjoyed watching them train thinking better them than me. I offered some advice and encouragement and spent a lot of time answering questions when I was asked. They all did amazing and I loved tracking them on race day, it made me think about my Ironman and how badly I wanted it. I did finish in 2015 but I always felt unsettled abut my race...it's hard to explain but to me it is a bit of a failure, I did not execute it the way I had wanted and my finishing was a close thing. At one point I was going to give up...that fact has always haunted me... I need a re-do. I had started to think about it, not really seriously but a small maybe someday.
A few days after IMMT I got a message from Danielle who, in a high after IMMT, signed up for IM Lake Placid in 2019 with her husband and asked if I wanted to join them. She ended her message, Food for thought...😃. Well I have to tell you that message was my lightening bolt, food for thought..it was a buffet. I went out and told Neale I had just received an offer that I would need to refuse and told him about Danielle's message. That quickly changed to well maybe I could...or could I. After thinking about everything, talking to Neale and others I trust I messaged her back saying thanks but it was not something I could commit too...but I was still not 100% convinced...and I am still not if I am being honest. My rational mind is saying to wait for 2020 and spend 2019 working on my cycling, which is still my weakest part, my monkey brain says YOLO, go for it and make it happen. Thank you Danielle for being the lightening bolt and lighting the fire in me again, it is now burning bright!
I have thought about a lot of things over the last week...has it only been a week? I can't say I have all the answers yet but I am making some plans and sorting out some new goals, some short term and some longer term. I have decided that I am doing another Ironman and for now I am looking at 2020 and probably IMMT but I reserve the right to change my mind. I am climbing Kilimanjaro in 2019 with Neale and I am spending the next 4 months losing body fat and trying to sort out the hormone stuff . Lets face it sleep is important in training and as of today, I am about 15lbs heavier than when I did my Ironman in 2015. I also want to get back to consistent training and feeling like I am back in control of my life. I have other goals as well, that sub 2 hour half marathon, a 10km open water swim and to finish my book and now I have added an Ironman to the list, something I was never sure would happen again.